Hellooo, I have been so busy lately!
Funny story, I took a walk to the beach last week with my camera, and was taking a bunch of beautiful pictures near the water. It was really windy though and my hair was blowing in my eyes so I could barely see, and well, I tripped over a log and dropped my camera. Okay, not really funny seeing as I broke my camera ;)! So all my pictures are crappy cellphone quality, boo. Good thing my camera is still under warranty, I think I’m going to get a new one later today. Onto some foodie pictures..
- Dark chocolate covered peanuts, oh yes I did!
I baked some gluten-free (because of my moms boyfriend) feta cheese biscuits. They turned out pretty good actually. The texture was that of a strawberry shortcake almost. I bet if I would have omitted the cheese and salt, added a little honey, they would be perfect for it! (Must try that next time)
- Peanut butter cookies
I also baked these peanut butter cookies with chocolate chips :). I made them for my aunt because it was her birthday. She raved about them, and I kept a few for myself and they were really good.
- Blueberry waffle
What an unattractive, boring picture of this Vans waffle! I toasted it and took it plain when I was running out to an appointment, but boy was it delish. I always thought I didn’t really like waffles, but I guess it was just because I haven’t tried one in years. Waffles are much better than I remember. When I was a kid I liked them as well, I used to just put a bunch of butter and nothing else on them.
Yes, that is a poptart! It is the Natures Path brand, but hey a poptart is a poptart. These were so freaking good. I definitely challenged myself with these. After I ate these, I’m not going to lie I had a bit of a panic. I got REALLY nervous and felt horribly guilty. I went for a really long bike ride after. I love going for bike rides because it eases my anxiety and allows me to clear my head and look at things rationally. I felt much better and actually proud when I got back. It’s just food and a calorie is a calorie. If I want to have “junk food” to make up my calories for the day that is fine and normal. Most of my friends eat 2 packs for breakfast anyways!
- Carrot cake
Another HUGE challenge was this lovely piece of carrot cake. It was my moms boyfriends birthday, and this is probably the first piece of cake I’ve had in years! I always passed on cake, even my own, which I know so many of us have done :(. Well let me tell you, this little beauty was a mouthgasm! What was I missing out on all these years?
This was a snack. Mini bowl of Mothers peanut butter bumpers with almond milk and 2 mini peanut butter cookies. I felt really critical of this snack/dessert because it was so carby. I hate over judging all of my food. I was craving peanut butter like nuts though, so I followed my cravings and it didn’t disappoint!
- Thinkthin bar
I had this for a snack at some point. I’ve never had this flavor before. It was mixed nuts with white chocolate. It was probably my favorite one of them yet! I loved it. It wasn’t overly sweet but it wasn’t bland either. It almost tasted like a rice krispy treat which I loved. I would definitely buy these again. I love the texture of thinkThin bars because they are almost like luna bars.
By the way, I usually only take pictures of the most exciting foods which turn out to be my snacks and desserts, haha. I haven’t been taking pictures of my dinners and lunches. I feel like they are too boring because they are mostly composed of steamed veggies and chicken. I am in a huge RUT with them. Does anyone have any suggestions of good lunch and dinner meals? Tomorrow I’m going grocery shopping so I plan to try a few Amy’s meals and pick up some new things for lunch.
A few days ago I finally got a haircut :)! I got 2 inches chopped off, but it was much-needed. My hair was so frail at the bottom and looked really bad. Normally I freak out when they chop off that much. I remember one time I went to get it cut and my mom secretly told the lady to cut off 2 inches when I wanted 1/2 inch. After the haircut I remember bawling my eyes out on the way home screaming that I hated the hairdresser and wanted to hurt her, haha. That definitely didn’t happen this time ;).
My new hair ^. All this time being outside lightened my hair. I always go to this place called Euphoria in the mall to get it done. I loveee that they give you hand massages while doing your hair, makes you feel pampered.
I finished the book “How to kill a mockingbird”, and it was very good! One of the best books I’ve read in a while. Now I just have to find the motivation to actually write the report :P. Maybe I’ll do that today since it’s pretty gloomy outside. I also want to watch the movie called “The Secret”.
It’s a documentary on how positive thinking can actually MAKE positive things happen. There are scientists who firmly believe and have evidence proving it which I am curious to see. They talk about how the mind is capable of so much more than any of us acknowledge or could even imagine. Sounds pretty interesting right? Has anyone heard of it?
I am going to try to keep thinking positive in my recovery and not worry about every little thing. Things have been pretty good this past week because I had no appointments (WOO!), so my anxiety was down. But I know it can’t stay that way forever, especially when I start school in 3 weeks. It will be back to being stressed and dealing with schoolwork. I have 3 weeks to gain weight before I go back to school, my goal is to gain at least 4lbs because I want to look better. I don’t want people to stare, it’s embarrassing. (Of course my ED is saying, “you look so normal right now” but I know that is false!)
Have a wonderful day everyone!